Kakashi-Sensei

Okay, So I don't even know where to begin.
The guy that I call Kakashi-sensei is the man t hat I love. I don't think that I should, but for some fucking reason, that no one wants to share with me i jst do. He means every fucking thing to me. The problem is he probably doesn't know that i exsist....
Okay not in that creepy stralker way. I see him in the halls and i just pine for him. No, none of that
way worse actually. We've dated and on occasion we fuck, and the terrible part is that is the best part of my life. The time that i spend with him is something so precious to me, I wouldn't trade it for the world. Someone could offer me a million dollars to never see him again and i'd tell them they have to be the stupidest perosn ever to land on this planet.

The struggle is that he feeds me this false hope that i feel as though means nothing
It means nothing to me, but everything to me, so i have to believe that it's real. I have to believe that he willl want me the way I want him. Or maybe he will give me the chance to make him happy because he knows that no one else will give him that attention they way that i will
and as i'm writing this i'm crying my eyes out, and i have the worst cry face ever, but i'm only writing this tidbit in the hopes that when i come back and read this i will laugh.

   Sad i know. Sorry for being so damn bad at things like this.
All I've every wanted is to find that prince to be in my fairy tale and i've foind in. I found him six years ago, but for some reason he doens't feel the same way. i thought they other was always supposed to love you. Damn fairy tales lie. I'm never goin to tell my kid a fairly tale. I don't want my kisd to feel this pain, the way i feel it.

      I dont understand how I can be in such a situation. I don't understand how this can be happening to me and speak of the devil....we talk about nothing for 7 min...and now i'm back to writing

I have a boyfriend. Tyler. I love him. All of my friends tell me other wise though. They know me better than i knoe myself apparently, but i refuse to be told that i don't love tyler. The problem is that sometimes when i'm alone and i try to tell myself that i love tyler, i don't always believe myself.
I kills me to know, so i guess i should break it off so he can find happiness with the right girl, but i stay because he makes me happy on the inside.
I probably make him one misrebl person


           I guess the moral of the story is don't be like me. Do what makes you happy and when you get something good, hold on real tight. but not too tight, you might just pop the damn head off

I know that didn't make sense because i didn't go into detail, but thats because I didn't want this post to be that long. trust me i could go on for pages about him, but that wouldn't mean anything because not too many people know about this blog, and by not too many, i mean only 2 ppl know i even made another  blog in the first place.

well thats all for now i guess

his Sakura
Keita </3

IDK

I don't know why i have this blog. I hav elike 3 blogs for no reason at all. I just have this one as a little joke between a friend but i don't think that he even gets on here. i donb't know what to ever say on here. I wonder if he thinks about me the way I think about him. I will never understand myself i know that much. i need to just go and get off of here. M ight be deleting this blog in a few

EX-marx the spot

I can't believe that after everything I have gone through with all of my relationships my biggest problem is that i always seem to go back to my ex
Never can I just go out and meet a nice guy. Nope, not this chick right here, I always gotta go back to someone that I've been with before. I have probably been out with each of my bf more than once
or at least the ones that I really care about.
not the guys that I was with for like a day or 2.
This is really starting to get on my nerves because I never get out of this dumb ass cycle. I want to just go out with the girls one day and just have fun, and we all look really nice and pick up guys but nope....not me.
I don't have any damn female friends anyway so that just won't even work.
I hate this
really gets under my skin....like just now I asked my ex did he wanna hang out he says he got stuff to do so I hang with the bf and a friend,. bored like crazy then the ex says sure I told my ppl that i was chilling with my boo so they can't come over now I'm stuck out no where land, bored like shit and I have nothing to do.......I wish that I was with my ex cuz he always find something to do and we never just watch other ppl play video games :(
I so with that I would find a guy that had everything that I've ever wanted plus more so i don't have to be caught up in between things that are going to confuse me :(

JXJ

So, I made this blog mostly just to have a blog that is separate from my beauty one...the problem is that I don't have the money for new supplies and things like that. There isn't much for me to talk or reveiw about and anything that I show would be really old. So I made the blog for my #2
He keeps me grounded every once in a while and I love him for it. He knows who he is... the problem is that no one reads this blog...well no one reads the other one either but I have a better chance to get ppl to read that one. This is the one I write in when I don't want anyone to see but then know that I'm having like "half" the balls to still put it all online.
I just wanted him to know that his summer rain is still here if ever he needs a shoulder <3

Moving!!!!!

So I'm going to be moving in a week.
Sadly not out of my moms house but my mother bought a house for the first time we shall be moving
The fun part is I can do whatever I want to my room
the not-so-fun part is that I have to do it all

I pulled up the old carpet, we knock out a couple cabinets and walls and things...but we have been getting tired and lazy and then the move out date from this house has changed so now its crunch time. I don't have a camera so I have no before pix, I think my mom has some.

But we are moving to lots of store and the bus line so I will have a job asap.
The Burger King is hiring with open interviews on Monday so......<3
Hopefully I get a job there if not we will be hustling that whole week

But the point is I will buy a camera and then there will be after pix for sure
even if you gotta wait ill April for me to do a room tour.
OH!!! BTW when I get said camera I hope that I'll be able to start my YouTube channel.
winterxj9 <3